wa.. long time nb blog. ppl complain liao

sry nb long fr such a long time. haix..
feeling down recently

many things i wanna blog about.. wil try toput them into categories.. then summarise them.. and blog them now within 15 min..i blog v long de

ok.. lately.. went out alot.. went to kbox.prom.bball.kpool.iceskating.maurice house.present huting.donut factory(got new flavours, check them out)
did have pics, but lazy upload.. just lost the fire and drive.. you know wats this blogg's purpose was for... but now its gone.. so lost the drive...but if u wanna go c the pics, my wonderfull frieds have them.. prom pics go to chmel's blog, kwl blog, py blog.. maurice blog..
fr kbox.. kwl de blog..
iceskating.. peiyi's blog

ok.. church...
kindda hate service and cgm now.. y?? cause all the sermon/preech/msgs all seems to be aiming at me.. makes me think so deep makes me sad/emo.. think bout the past.. things i did wrong.. things i should have done and shouldnt have.. haix.. but well.. benefit frm it lahx.. my life is supe coincidental man.. sermon's msgs so evident in my life.. infact all of them since i went to church..
and ya. .we went to iceskate on monday..guess wat.. there's a mini iceskating ring(its a ice skating 'square' there cause its in novena square.haha)in novena wen i went the to buy donut..then i dunno y i watch project runway at 1am on tuesday.. dunn fell lik watching but watched it..then found out that the designers have to design iceskates clothes fr sasah cohen( a ice skating silver medalist in olympics)( she's cute).. so qiao lahx..cant stand it

CHALKY also.. so damn coeincidental..most of u may know wat it means
trying c wether can get CHALKY PRECIPITATE..haha
wa.. frget how spell.. hope correct.. my chem is detiorating

ok.. next..er...prom
prom has its ups and downs
didnt talked much to many ppl.. these includes chmel, rueychyi, jeremy and gang( their table)
haixx.. kindda regret..but did took some pics with most of them.. i hate the dj..play music so loud.. prom dance lehx.. play hip hop/ rock music.. damn dumb.. should play some romantic songs, ballets, some danceble songs lolz..haix.. should have requested a song to KP.. tehn can ask some1 to dance.. total disaster.. i too chicken also lahx.. i hate myself..
well the mc was super hillarious..lik him alot men..haha..u know wat.. he also complained that the dj blast the sound too loud and wanna quit his job.haha
the food was super not worth 70bucks.. i olie lik the octopus and fried rice.. the rest was not upto standard, but edible.. they give too small portion also lolz..haha..

k next, iceskate..
didnt wanna go at firstt, but also wanna try to iceskate.. just scare throw face..haha.. but well.. take a bet.. and i was not that bad men!!haha.. learned how skate(super basics) in less than 2hr.. we skated fr 4hrs..hahaha.. leg pain man.. reallie pain.. lim always kenna ps.. he cant reallie skate..but gt the hang of it and was able to cach up wit us in end..haha.. took some photos.. didnt bring my cam..sianed...... peiyi has it.. so c her blog bahx..ya.. chiyee was with us!! still remember the song that we composed fr him.. poo composed it actuallie..hhaha..damn funny..went to play pool after that.. fall in love with pool.. i improved tremendously men!!!!!! so proud of myself.. but long range shot still lacks accuracy.. wanna play once more b4 i go back

next.. going bacl indo..
fr those that doesnt know.. im going back to my home town fr good... jus jk.. fr 1 month nia.. cant bear to leave spore..haha.. luv it here..wit all the frens. computers.. memories.. laughters.. mrt. bus.. ahh.. so wonderfull..nt lik indo..sianed... haha.. going back on 1st december.. which leaves me3 more days here..WOW..coming back on 31.. dun wanna go back.. will post 1 more time b4 i go back.. so dun complain i nb update..
will try to update wen in indo.. but my com there superlag..use dial-up.. how i miss it!!!!!!!hahaha....

ya..can some1 help me to get my PAE results.. i not sure wether they will email me.. help me register also can?? that some1 pls sms me.. thx

next.. kbox
after prom went there.. was a big group.. but kenna dismantled till left 6 ppl..
was still fun..super funn..but i was not high..haha.. onlie stood once on the couch t sing cause sushan and gang came to visit us.. sang BABY BABY by JJ.. jus love that song.. haha.... let me reminisce of my past memory.. sweet bitter ones.. i dun lik the mike.. my voice sounds terrible with the echo.. cant hear my self sing and cant correct myself also..sianed.. so sang without it.. but i cant sing loud.. will monotonous..haha..so need the mike.. first time went there.. so memorable lahx.. 6hrs nonstop singing.. ate the snacks..the rest dun seemd to eat.. we paid fr it lehx!!.haha

next.. emo!!
sometimes jus hate myself.. and hate others around me..hate all of my frens.. sorry..haix.tell myself everything i did is always wrong, not appreciated by others, all futile attempts, nobody likes me.. Jesus hates me too.. God too.. give me such a miserable life.. No.. no He loves me.. all this are just challenges/circumstances which will go off in a while..words lik this will come t encourage myslef.. still thinking again.. did i jus lied to myself jus to put a smile to my face??

everyday, something devastating will always happen.. sudden burst of sadness, feeling lik a failure.. one by one.. pronlems keep coming.. i will doubt Him then.. but idunno wether i constantly lied to myself.. that Jesus wont do that to me.. he loves me..hope im not.. all the sermons been talking bout this..all so evident in me..haix...

sometimes i get this feeling that im special.. im destined to do something bigger.something heroic..something special..like Heroes.. haha.. mylife is so coeincidental.. mayb that show is a msg fr me..haha.. this special thing..to have special abilities.. to help man kind..haha..day dreaming is fun.haix

k.. my blog end here..
i learned that wat u pray sincerely and whole heartedly will always come true.. if i am able to have 1 more chance.. just 1 more chance.. i really want to take back my prayers O lord..i wanna fr me.fr myself..i wanna be selfish jus fr once..but.. theres jus some system in me that forbids myself frm doing that.. a system that puts others b4 me..hate that bout ,e