Pain

saturday... haixx.. memorable day... gonna b 4eva planted in my memoirs.....

reallie in pain.. cause of some unforseen circumstances.... dunno how to discribe it.. its lik ur heart is being repeteadly stabbed, but no blood flows out of that stabbed marks, which will remain as scars in my life.....

and well.. found that other than sighing.. singing can relieve that pain in my heart.. usuallie chinese songs.. so will sing my heart out. admire my own voice.. the pain will be gone, temporarily.. out of no where, that pain will ricochet back again.. esp when i feel that im alone.. haixx

Reallie hope that this pain would not affect me in wat so ever ways fr my O's..
now that my dream and motive fr staying in Singapore is gone.. im nt sure whether to go USA or go Jc in Singapore.. so vexed!!!!...

got 617/677 fr my TOEFL. 91%.. v good liao.. dunno wete can go into good Uni there.. but.. 1 problem is money... haixx... wanna go to MIT.. near New York..that institute specialises in engineering.... can achieve my dream there.. and become miliionaire faster..haha.. haixx.. but just can let go of all u friends..haha....

still as i said earlier.. one of the anchors that's keeping me anchored in singapore has broke into pieces together with my heart.. haixx....

so confused.. (me and nick's signature) im now trapped in a quagmire of thoughts.. hahaha... friends like him is so hard to come by... Thanks for being my fren.... kindda gay.. hahaha..

Haix..i kindda hate u.. for giving me all these pain rite now.. y cant it be after Os.. y now.. haixx..but i decided to forgo of this negaitve thoughts.. just lik wat KP said.. must look 4ward into future... yeah... there's still so many pebbles on the beach..y settle fr this 1 little pebble.... hahaha...

after all...i cant bear to hate u...cause u will always remain in my heart..
i Love Jesus!!!

time to move forward.. and proceed on with life... just lik this blog.. need continue posting.. if not ppl will complain.. ask me update...haha.. lousy metaphor..haha